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Sunday, April 08, 2007

Currently Listening
Jurassic Park: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack
By John Williams
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Fall leaves that had just turned floated lazily by on a soft breeze. The air had a chill to it, but not to the extent that it was uncomfortable. The sun broke through the scattered clouds again, catching the rain’s leftovers and creating a brilliant rainbow that arched majestically overhead.

            He lay stretched out on the grass, cares forgotten long ago, and watched as nature held a beauty pageant before his eyes.

            The bright green of the grass contrasted the dull oranges and reds that now covered the trees lining the field. Daisies spotted the ground in front of him. The lake off to the left sparkled in the sunlight, creating a mirror of the gorgeous scene that surrounded him. There was an island in the middle, dotted by a stand of cherry trees that tossed their newly sprouted blossoms into the wind, which spread them out over the surface of the water.

            A flock of geese flapped contentedly up above, assumedly moving south for the winter, though he could not imagine why they should want to leave. Deer wove in and out of the forest on his right, nibbling at the luscious grass and picking a flower here and there for dessert. They lifted their heads every so often to glance at him, but his presence did not seem to alarm them in the least. He did not doubt that he could walk right up and pet them if he so wished, but he felt so perfectly satisfied with his current position that he found motivation to do so utterly lacking.

Never before had such a sense of contentment filled him. It was as if his entire life had been lived for this moment, and he would give anything in the world to make it last just one more minute.

The change was instantaneous and terrifying, accompanied by a loud crack like a gunshot. Darkness swept over the landscape in one fell swoop, covering the light like a blanket over a candle, and sucking the last drops of joy from his heart.

Cold fear, remorseless and sadistic, gripped him fiercely, like a tidal wave holding him under while he struggled to breathe. Lightning flashed across the sky, each streak punctuated by the familiar gunshot that had sounded before. The deadly acid called dread ate away at his exposed soul with every resounding roar.

His mind suddenly attached itself to the present, and he realized that the ground that he sat on, moments ago covered in lush grass, was now barren and parched. A sharp stone was digging into his backside, and he lifted himself from the ground with great effort.

Another flash of light illuminated the field around him, revealing the dead rotting carcasses that could only be the deer he had watched seconds ago.

He recoiled in horror.

The trees that lined the meadow were now lifeless and bare, devoid of the color that they had draped across their limbs. The black lake reflected another pitchfork of light, no longer calm and serene, but raging and wild in the wind that now whipped at his clothes. Across the water, the island still sat peacefully, the blossoms that had flowed from it now a distant memory.

There was a man on the island.

Outlined briefly against the bright sky behind him, the man stood unmoving, wrapped in a long cloak with head hanging low.

 Watching transfixed from the shore of the lake, the he forgot about the horror that had gripped him when the scene changed from day to night. The new feeling that invaded his mind had scared it away. He suddenly knew, deep within his soul, that something dreadfully awful was about to happen.

He gazed cautiously at the still figure on the cherry tree island. The head lifted. He could suddenly see the face that looked back at his with stunning clarity, as though he were only a few meters away. The skin was drawn taut across the skull, so white it appeared to be a skull itself. The eyes were bloodshot, red to the point that there was no longer any white left. They glinted with a malevolent light, one that sent a fresh bolt of fear crashing through his heart.

But the greatest terror came when he realized that the face was not so unique as he first had thought. The features, though twisted and marred by some unknown evil, were quite familiar to him.

They were his own.

He turned in shock, eyes still glued to the sight, body attempting madly to flee from the scene. As he watched, the figure suddenly crouched low to the ground, then propelled itself through the air, high above in a twisting, tumbling leap. It landed on the near side of the lake, a shock wave rumbling through the ground, and then it began to run.

He finally tore his eyes from his pursuer long enough to catch the ground in front of him in the light of another lightning flash. Except, there was no ground. His foot caught on some hidden tree root and he fell headlong into a gaping hole. As his feet slowly curled over his head it occurred to him that he was going to die. He had known it when he first looked into those wretched eyes, but the fact drew fresh strength from the helplessness of his new position.

He continued to tumble end over end, wondering how long his fall could possibly last, when he realized that he was in fact standing on solid ground. There was no light in this pit of despair, but he could feel the presence of someone behind him. He tried to work up courage to turn and face this fear, but nothing within him seemed equal to the task.

Just when he thought he might be able to make it, rough hands seized him. Claws bit sharply into his exposed neck, and a haggard breath filled his ears.

He screamed in a mixture of shock and terror, but the silence of his tomb seemed to absorb his shout completely.

“Now,” it wheezed past crooked teeth, “you die!”


Saturday, March 31, 2007

Currently Gaming
The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess
By Nintendo of America
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Savior

For naught the will within me tried
God’s law would not be satisfied
Until the Lamb had lived and died
And rose to live again

He bore my sins upon His back
Cleansed the heart that once was black
His righteousness I’ll never lack
Because He took my place

But this great truth I did not see
For God had yet to work in me
To show the price He’d paid to free
This sinful slave of sin

Now in Christ’s love I will abide
When good and ill in me collide
His arms to me are opened wide
Within I will find rest


Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Currently Listening
Oh! Gravity.
By Switchfoot
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*sigh*

My public clamors for an update, so I suppose it is my duty to appease them.



I am well into the second week of school now, and I must say that this semester has started off at a faster pace than the last one did. Already I have found myself with a lot of reading and the idea of having research papers to add on to this later in the year is less than comforting. Oh well. Such is my life as a college student and I am bound to it for the foreseeable future (which is actually a nonsense statement, since the future is not foreseeable in any length...whatever).

Other than that I do not have a lot to say. I have been studying 1 Samuel for the last few weeks, paying careful attention to the way God controls the story and orders events to his will. Really good stuff, and there was a lot there.

I worked on my story for an extended portion of the afternoon today and made several changes (or rather, additions) that I am really liking right now. It has me excited to work on it more, and I'm really starting to think this is my calling in life. One of the biggest things I had been struggling with was the message of it. As I had gone along I had made changes to the story in order to make it better, more realistic, etc. and I found that I had lost most of my original symbolism. As I thought about that today I found several things I could do that added elephantine poundage (i.e. "tons" ) of meaning to the story. Now it is full of symbolic meaning and allegorical parallels.

Well, that is all for now. Perhaps I will be able to maintain more consistency this time (I doubt it).

Ben


Thursday, November 30, 2006

Currently Reading
Blink
By Ted Dekker
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Well, there isn't much going on right now.

Haha. That was funny.

As was expected, life has gotten decidedly busier over the last few weeks and it shows no signs of slowing down any time before my last final. Funny how presence of finals and lack of time seem to coincide.

We have White Glove Room Check tonight. The room check to end all room checks. We've cleaned here and there the last few days and with a little touch up this afternoon we should be good to go. If not, $20 fine and we try again.

I've also got a poem for all of you xanga'ers out there (all three of you that still check this). It is pretty random, and was born out of a moment of boredom.

Lame Poem

A wise old man once told me
"Make sure your fly is zipped."
But when I tried to zip it
I took a step and slipped

I landed on a monkey
He smiled and said "Hello"
But when I asked if he talked
He laughed and answered "No!"

Right now you're prob'ly thinking
"This poem sure is lame"
I'm not sure I can blame you
It's in the poem's name

That last line got you laughing
I know it did - 'tis true!
If not you'd best stop reading
My humor's not for you

It takes a lot of talent
To make something this weird
At least I'm good at this though
I sure can't grow a beard

But let's get back to monkees
They like to say "Hey, Hey!"
At least that's what they said
In a song I heard one day

To make a short tale longer
I think I'll talk of grapes
Though if I try to rhyme now
I'm forced to talk of apes

The end has come at last
My story's at an end
When I slipped - I got up
And that is all my friend


And...that is all I have for you. Until next time.

Ben


Monday, November 13, 2006

Currently Listening
Love Songs
By Nat King Cole
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Ahhh! I have turned into one of those people that never update their site.

I would tell you all that has happened in the last month, but alas, there is too much to say and too little time to say it in. To quote Inigo Montoya, "Let me esplain...no, there is too much. Let me sum up."

So let me sum up. I have had many tests taken and papers written over the last few weeks. I have really begun to enjoy my english class, and I am now planning on a shift of focus for my major. Instead of trying to become a sports broadcaster (which I had already decided against), I am now planning to focus on the writing side of sports news. I think that this is something that I am not only capable of doing, but something I would enjoy doing for a living.

Other classes have gone well also, but there is not much of significance that has happened in them.

I am still reading through Sinners in the Hands of A Good God. After making it through the first six chapters I spent several weeks looking back through the previous chapters and rereading several extended sections to further ingrain the information into my head. It is one of the most well thought out and clearly presented teachings I have ever seen on the subject of God's sovereignty and grace and how they work together with His wrath and justice.

This week looks to be a lot of fun. Not a heavy schedule academically, but we have Mr. Big Chief (our male beauty pageant - it's not what you think!) on Thursday and Homecoming is on Saturday.

I hope that all of you are doing well.

Ben



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